Which badass are you? Comparing both levels
Are you a badass or a badass?
I started out at level one badass and now I’m a solid level two badass.
And I'm curious what level three badass will be like! That’s the beautiful part about being open to growth—the levels are infinite!
Here's what level one was like:
I started out thinking I was a real badass. Because I was…on paper and to Facebook onlookers. I had the job, responsibilities, money, and things that are synonymous with the word. Turns out, it was just a front I was hiding behind.
I always thought I had to tackle everything on my own and not ask for help because that would mean I was weak and consequently less badass.
But secretly? I really didn't want people to know that I didn't have it all together because inside, I was a mess. I was up in my head all the time and it was loud in there! I took things personally and overthought everything, especially what others thought about me.
I was in a constant and frustrating cycle of pushing myself harder to achieve, beating myself up when I didn’t, and then repeating the cycle.
Never feeling like I had enough time, energy, success, joy, or results.
I thought it was my responsibility to say and do things that made people feel happy or comfortable. And consequently, I felt uber-guilty and shameful when, despite my best efforts, something I did or said made them sad, mad, or frustrated.
All of this inner turmoil kept me stressed and stalled out from easily accomplishing goals that were important. Two of which were eating healthy and working out. They felt like huge and impossible undertakings because of the self-imposed pressure to control my every move and do it all perfectly.
None of this was badass!
The only badass back then was my Inner Critic. She was running the whole shit show and I was her puppet.
Comparing that to level two:
Badass has taken on a new feeling and definition for me. It’s a quiet strength. A knowing. It feels confident, authentic, and solid.
It’s ease and flow. Subtle instead of loud. Bold yet chill.
There’s no fronting or behind-the-scenes persona running the show.
There’s no measuring up, trying hard, self-judgment, guilt, or shame.
I feel enough and focus on what’s going right and the abundance I already have vs. lack.
I no longer fear being vulnerable nor am I concerned about what people think about me. I feel equal to others vs. less than.
I finally understand that I do not or can not control other people’s thoughts or feelings and that I’m only responsible for my own own. What a game-changer this has been!
I am much more productive because my energy is spent living and actioning now instead of staying up in my head thinking negative, spin-out, and ‘what-if’ thoughts.
I eat when I’m hungry (and no longer sabotage my efforts), move my body when it wants to move, sleep when I’m tired, and create time for play. This all keeps me healthy, the right weight, and full of joy with ease vs trying hard, restricting, controlling, or perfecting.
Had I not been receptive to learning how to manage my mind and develop a healthy relationship with myself and my body I would have stayed at level one badass possibly forever thinking that was the right way to move through life. Oh hell no! Level one was the imposter! Level two? That’s authentic and up-leveled me.
If you’re at level one (or one plus ;)) and you’re curious about level two, let’s connect! Either reach out to schedule a free consultation or join my Motivation Monday community (and get a bonus download that starts taking you to next-level badass stat!